Some days I ask God what he is saying. Most days I get an unexpected answer.
Today, I spent some time with my son who has a unique calling on his life. The same spark I have seen in my own life since I was young, I saw in him. I always thought of it as something better than myself. "A spark of Greatness" if you will. Now this spark wasn't always there, that I noticed... but about 15 years of age I began to feel it ignite. It showed up when I wrote... when I saw something that fit my calling. (although, I had no idea at the time what a "calling" was...)
As soon as I felt the inspiration, something would come along that hindered it. Before you know it, I was internally calling myself stupid, awkward, a joke and unless I kept quiet people would laugh at me.
(and that was all without social media!) I never gave myself credit for anything that someone else didn't say first. I couldn't allow my joy in anything that confirmed who I was... and/or who I wasn't.
So today when I sat across from my beautiful son, who I feel needs validation and dreams more than anything else in his life, I thought about that inner dialogue that was so rampant through my soul when I was his age. If he knew all that God had called him to, he would not doubt in his heart for a moment the love of God for him nor the precious love that gave him life.
When I left the restaurant, I thought of the spark God placed in my heart, for many years I thought it was the ability to be "blessed beyond all I could ask or think". That spark of Greatness was going to compel me into world renown stardom, infamy ...so, I thought... but the spark of Greatness within us doesn't call us to natural things ... it calls us to God.
It lights a flame in us that never stops burning. Now eventually, I got used to the burning. I ignored for a time, but it never stopped. I never thought other people would want to see the light burning within me. So, I went about being what others thought I should be .... NOT what God wanted me to be.
What I found was that the spark / flame or burning in my soul was God. My Spirit man hungry for the things of God I couldn't feed him. I didn't know how to feed him, but when I found food that was about God... my soul couldn't get enough. I have been overwhelmed with the need to understand God since he revealed the true calling of my life. The spark that drew me to Him and hungered for Him is the same spark that revealed in me what the Greatness in my life really was.
When I asked God what he wanted to tell me today... This is what I got;
Amazing how the things of God turns our natural thinking on it's ear and transforms us. Loving God will not only help you find who you are it will change your understanding of this world in such a way that you don't know how you looked at the things and people of this world any other way. I pray he reveals to you what he revealed to me. May his anointing ever be on you to reveal God to you in ways that your own comprehension can't fathom!
What God revealed to me today;
Someday God is going to ask you to take that spark and add it to HIS. The igniter (God's love) is going to set off a fire so great that no matter what you do you will feel the nature (the Spirit of God ) surrounding you. Compelling you to be who you were called to be.
I look forward to seeing you do the impossible with God.
Matthew 19:26 states, "But Jesus beheld [them], and said unto them, With men this is impossible, but with God all things are possible. NKJV