What subject matter we get when we decide to write what God tells us to write. The thing is I don't think he wants to answer this question so much as give you some insight into my world.
I started writing as a child. Early in elementary I received an award for poetry. It was until much later while in 7th grade that suddenly like a switch I heard a girl reading a poem and my whole body came alive. It was more than a light bulb moment. It was God pointing the arrow to my destiny. I knew it from head to toe.
So, from a very young age I wrote. I never stopped writing. I don't know how many tree's I killed learning to form thoughts and stories into poems. Bit's and pieces that would come but never be fully realized, then 4 pages of stories would come in poetry format, almost out of nowhere. Stories would come to me like droplets from the sky. People and things would suddenly show me their journey and I would HAVE TO write them.
Mostly, I allowed my family to read these poems. However, they were my heart on paper and they were as closely guarded as my heart. I refused to share them and be subject to the ridicule of the world. In that respect, I was correct. Where it concerned not sharing my actual heart with people. I was wrong.
Fast forward to 18 months ago. I had spent the last ten years not writing more than bits and pieces and what I thought was my lost destiny seemed truly that. I never really thought about it anymore.
I buried that part of myself so far down that I believed it to be a chapter closed. God had a different plan in mind. The journey back to my real destiny was simply found in God.
God had always been part of my life and I believed like many other Christians that this journey in life happens for a reason so when hard things would occur I believed they happened for a reason and I needed to trust God to find my way out. YES, that is true. However, the relationship I had developed in God was not enough to keep steadfast. My peace was altered at anyone simply giving me a dirty look much less every day stuff. The list was endless at what could throw my peace to the curb at a moments notice. I was drowning in every day life. If the truth be told, I was so raw from the things I was trying to be strong through and by my own power, that the peace of God never even played a part in my life on a daily basis. ... This was not the plan God had in mind for me.
As I began to have the quiet opportunity to walk with God daily I noticed he began to show me things about myself that he saw in me. Things I had put away for good. First he dealt with the pain, I received from others in my life. Then he began to speak healing into my heart...then real life, then hope, then joy. I began to breath clean air, not muddled with the pollution this life & the enemy offers you and we freely partake.
I began to choose as an act of my will, HIM. I chose life and not death. I chose to be whatever HE needed. Whatever it took to be used by HIM, I surrendered to him. Obeying his voice when it was evident it was HIM. Through this journey, I faced so many things that my Father showed me I had accepted from the enemy. It was incredible what the enemy will bring with him when you allow him to bring one thing in to your soul. This was not an easy process and I was faced with the enemy on many occasions. Expressing to me I couldn't get rid of him. The enemy was RIGHT I couldn't, but God could and he did!
So, by now your asking yourself what does this have to do with whether or not God is real?
Well, I cannot prove to you God is real without telling you what he did in my life. He took a very beat down, dejected, resentful, jealous heart and made it more than a conqueror! (THANK YOU, JESUS)
My life, as it is now is not what I thought it would be. My life now, is what God has molded it to be!
In the last 18 months, He has taken pain I thought I would carry my whole life and turned it to dust.
He has taken a destiny I thought was dead and buried and resurrected it. So much so, that I have published a book (and two more to come) . My prayers have not returned void and there is no question that I am doing what God wrote on my heart to do. God is no respecter of persons, if he did it for me , he can and will do it for you!
Your destiny is NOT gone and not in the wind, but it is WHO God has written on you from the beginning! I testify, I know of NO ONE who can change a life and make it whole like that of our Father and HIS Son Jesus Christ. I am so proud to be once again writing and pursuing the Father with my talents and Gifts! It is what I was destined for, what I was made for...
IS GOD REAL... from my perspective, I had no one else offering to clean up my heart. I had no one else ready to hand a destiny, I had spent years perfecting only to allow the enemy to wipe it away as though I was useless. I remember thinking, no one can see what God has placed in me until I show them. Until I give away what he alone has given me. A part of himself within me.
It is his resurrection power that gives us the courage to walk through the flames and denies the devil anything that he thinks he is due. It is the Grace of God that surrounds us with his light and brings to mind the hunger to do what God has forever written on our soul.
God is the only one who could have given me the insight and the courage to be the person I was destined to be in the first place... giving others the hope and skills to walk out who they are in HIM. This journey with God is not for the faint of heart but for those who will diligently seek HIM.
This journey is for you.
But without faith it is impossible to please him: for he that comes to God must believe that he is, and that he is a rewarder of them that diligently seek him. - Heb. 11: 6 KJV
It only takes a little to start this journey with him. The faith of a mustard seed is what He calls it.
The God I serve is real and powerful to move mountains and see me whole again.
Daily I walk with him and learn that he has a plan for me. To me, he is more real than anything I have ever seen or encountered.
My hope is that you will find him as I did and turn your life into a testament for the MOST HIGH GOD!
His reality is better than any life I was living before. There is no wilderness to great. No life uncensored that he can not catapult through to save us. He is an expert at pulling us out of our depths with the enemy and changing our stars.
God is not done with me yet. In fact, on many days it seems I have much more work to do, but I know in the heart of my heart, I will not be doing it alone. He is with me constantly, advising me of the right course of action and even when not to take action. We are not alone my friends. God is with us until the end!
God go with you. God go out before you in ALL that you do!