(I encourage you to play the worship song above while you read the following blog post)
“Women of Position”
There is something about Women of Position and Clout that sticks with a person. First, because it is so rare to see a true “Woman of Position” in authority… by that I mean, the One true God has placed in her POSITION.
Her life force is that of Strategy and Hope that conquers everything from the smallest of obstacles to the largest of foes. She has armor that never fails her, to that end she also carries with her weapons of mass destruction that most of the body of Christ already have available to them, but SHE has made use of them.
Esther 5:1. Now it was on the third day that Esther put on her royal apparel and stood in the inner court of the king’s house, opposite the king’s house, and the king sat upon his royal throne in the royal house, opposite the gate of the house. 2. And it was so, when the king saw Esther the queen standing in the court, she obtained favor in his sight and the king held out to Esther the golden scepter that was in his hand. So Esther drew near and touched the top of the scepter. 3. Then the king said to her, What is it, queen Esther ? And what is your request? It will be even given to you to half the kingdom.
(This is a picture of Jesus and how He sees us each time we "enter in")
Women of Position, have purpose and plead the case for others to find their purposes. She is not weak minded. She does not give into the enemy but sees her purposes and callings as the RIGHTS she holds with the Father. This woman will walk in the room carrying with her the dignity and pride that comes from being a daughter of the Most High GOD and you WILL notice. Her stature and Her rights are afforded to her by Her Father (Father, God). She is not boastful or prideful, she is honest and charismatic because it is her right to be so. She will offer you the same rights she has… it is up to you to take the authority she has been given out of Freedom. It is her right to walk in the will of the Father, at any given time in her life.
She follows the Father (aside from being completely in love with the Father) because He has given her the authority and power to do so. She is not ashamed of her family roots, because no matter what has happened to her, the Father has forgiven her. You cannot hold anything over her head. She has dealt with it all by submitting to the Father, and the Father has already settled in her heart, the matter which you would condemn her for.
Women of Position, have loyalty & devotion woven into their hearts. This is done largely by times of great worship before the throne of the Most High God. Time spent humbling themselves in all out prostration before the Lord. You cannot fake this type of assurance from the Father. It is the shield of Faith which stands in front of her at all times. (Ephesians 6:16)
God has clothed her in righteousness and brought her to Him for inspection. She will always bear the mark of the Lord in battle. Always restore the balance of the enemies work in the lives of the people around her. She watches over Heaven’s gates and records the blessings of virtue, (behavior showing high moral standards) in the Heaven’s for the Heavenly Father. (in other words, she remembers what has been given to her)
She is not a camp ground the enemy likes to play hide and seek in, but an all-out war room!
When a Woman of Position has matured into her authority, it is often after a very dignified ranking ceremony, in which she inherits the breath and width and power, through the Most High Father God.
We over look this as a community because we are not used to the body of Christ excelling in the supernatural, but God has another plan and has pushed forth, in this day and hour the Kingdom call of the daughters of authority. This is not a simple call... to the ones who will receive it. These have shed their rights as individuals of this earth and assumed HIS power altogether.
Women of Position and Rank, have begun to wale on the enemy in such a way that the enemy naturally flees when they see her coming. She comes with an entourage of battlefield brigades. They are heavily armed and know how to use their accoutrements. They walk beside her, proud to be in the army of the Lord and in her company.
...She is well known throughout the ranks and they enjoy her privilege.
She is NOT of this world.
Her heart is filled with the Fire of the Lord and shows the world what God, has in fact written on her heart. She was given the hope of the Father and never loses courage to go forth to make this world a better place. His love surrounds her with peace and majesty and enables her to do all things He asks of her.
She is a force to be reckoned with… all women can come to this conclusion with the Father! It is their RIGHT to be “the chosen of God”… To walk in the preparation of the Gospel of Peace. This is the plan of the Father.
We as women, have been thrown to the side (kicked to the curb) and beheld ourselves as useless, but that is not what the Father has cried over us, for a generation. We were used by the enemy in such a way, that he may curse us and fill us with his own defeat. God says, "THAT WAS NOT HIS PLAN."
His plan was to fortify us, to walk where he walked, to shed light on the plans of the Father for each and every one of us. Each made special within HIS realm and authority. Some of us have known this authority for a while and can already bend life to the Father’s will, but others are just barely stepping into what the Father has called you to… Let the Gospel of Peace embed itself in you and accept your truest nature has always been with the Father. He knows you best and rallies behind each and every one of your cries!
It is so simple to sit with the Father and lean into HIS goodness. This is only part of the truth and the life the Father is calling you into… Oh allow HIS goodness to wash over you and tell you, WHO YOU ARE … day in and day out.
Suddenly, that flood of goodness will over take you and show you the way to the armory, He has built in your honor.
This is a call to those who will champion for the Lord all things Christ like. A Heavenly outcry to the body… to show the enemy, the heavenly force that compels us to “leave in the dust” all that the enemy has built with rocks and sticks.
There is nothing the Father doesn’t intend to break down. All the walls of the enemy are targets, including your own! He will shed anything with in you that is not HIS!
Go forth and create within yourself a picture of a PRINCESS WARRIOR and that will be what you aspire to … God creates from nothing an entire universe. He stretches out HIS hand to fight the enemy as He goes before you. Do not think He cannot create in you what was already there from the beginning.
HE HAS CALLED YOU OUT FROM THE DEPTHS TO BE THE WARRIORS
THAT ONLY THE FATHER CAN CREATE.
Decide now what you will be … Conqueror’s or the Conquered?
“I am enlisting Now” says the Father… Those women who will be Faithful and Free of the enemy in all places. A Woman of Position and Clout, that only God can create in them. Who will join me in the battlefield? Who will align their precious hearts with the Father’s will? Who will see the captives set free and made whole again?
This is the time to move up the Heavenly ranks, and seek your Father’s face, “for your time is NOW” says the Father! Overwhelming the enemy is foremost on the Father’s heart… shear courage and the will of the Father, going out before you. If, you can envision the heart of the Father resting on you in battle… you must know you are called to this Rank of Retaliation on the enemy.
This war is only done in the spirit, (Ephesians 6:12) we move, we seek the enemy out in the spirit and take with us all the armor afforded to us in THE WORD.
We ARE the enemy, of the enemy and nothing can come against us! Power up your armor now and war with me, for it is time for the enemy to run!
We have walked the desert long enough, you & I. Our time with the Father has proven a great stewardship in our hearts. We no longer fight for ourselves but for the millions who have no chance against the enemy. If this is the call of the Lord on your life, suit up… it’s armor time!
The Father is calling all those who will participate in the onslaught of the millions of enemies who have stormed the castle. We will leave them for useless in the dry places and chain them to the ground. We will have our day in the Lord and nothing shall by any means harm us! (Luke 10:19)
This is the will of the Lord in our lives!
To shape the continents in which we live and over power the enemy. A joint construct of the Father and His children. We (Women) may have been seen as nothing over the centuries but God had a plan from the beginning, to show the world a warrior that would not back down, would not let up, would not be challenged because they carry inside them an incorruptible armor.
This is the call to Christ I know. This is who I am.
I am calling YOU, to be that warrior you have been denying in your heart you are… denying the very part of you that cry’s out to God in Heaven for the RIGHT to be victorious over all the enemies plans and works in your lives, and in your families lives.
WHO ARE YOU WOMEN OF GOD? WHO ARE YOU DESTINED TO BECOME?
I CHALLENGE YOU NOW, TO ROLL UP YOUR SLEEVES AND ASK GOD WHO IS...WHO YOU WERE MEANT TO BE? GREAT AND MIGHTY WOMEN AND MEN OF GOD?
... OR A MOUSE WHO WILL SOME DAY LOSE ITS LIFE TO THE TRAP OF THE ENEMY?
It is time, Women of the Most HIGH GOD to bear your armor and show the enemy we can rise against him. No matter what the march, Remember, who your God is Women, and tackle your enemy head on… You do not have anything to be ashamed or embarrassed of … The Most High God has called you into to battle and he will reward you amply for your service!
The decision is yours… but be prepared, the Most High calls you into battle on HIS terms! This is not a negotiation submission, but a full on, total and complete compliance. No enemy can resist that … harboring ill will, in a spiritual battle destroys what God is doing in you and through you. You have to let go of anything in the past and hand it fully over to the Father.
This is who you are body of Christ. This is who you are called to be… FAITH FILLED WARRIORS FOR THE MOST HIGH GOD AND KING OF YOUR SALVATION!
Who do you think….............. YOU ARE?
Today, I got up and went into the office where I usually go to meet God. I waited there for him to come and give me the instruction for the day, and as usual He began to talk to me.
Now, I didn't sleep very well last night. So, I was tired this morning. I have learned to ignore those tired moments and just seek God. Which is what I was doing when suddenly out of the blue the Holy Spirit said this;
"Get up and go in the living room and take a breathe before the Lord calls on you again,
And know your willingness has been recorded in the lambs book of life. "
So, I did.
I wasn't searching for rest, but the Holy Spirit knew I was tired.
Now, the Holy Spirit doesn't always speak to me so abruptly. I was a bit shocked that He would say "STOP". I thought about the many things I had left undone, as I adjourned to my living room.
I turned on a show I like to watch and began to listen. They were playing worship music. I thought to myself, "perfect"... I closed my eyes and just followed along in my mind.
When the song was over they ministered a verse or two and continued to worship again. " I could do this all day" I thought, and continued to soak in the atmosphere.
From time to time, in the next thirty minutes I did a quick check in my spirit man to see if I should go back to work. "NOPE"... So, there I sat for an hour. Till the "work" of being with God began to melt away. As I rested, I sensed the position of the Holy Spirit over this instruction.
It was time to take a REST. I had been so interested in NOT missing God and honestly wanted to dig into HIS goodness so much, that I was actually overwhelming myself with my own responsibilities. I was beginning to walk in stress and not HIS power, love and a sound mind.
Often, I wonder how things work in a heavenly environment, where no one is anxious or filled with anxiety over getting the job done. Well, I am going to say this out loud... "THEY REST UPON THE LORD". SEE! Nothing unscriptural about it. They have a million and one things to do but they rest in the Lord as part of what God wants them to do.
The effects of the rest I am encountering as we speak, is a moment of clarity between myself and the Holy Spirit, to speak to you regarding rest.
As many of you know, God is not predictable in the sense that he often will change things up. I experience that nearly every week at church, as the worship team leads and the Pastor reveals what the Holy Spirit has given him to relay and teach us about. Revelation of the word doesn't always come by pouring out over the scriptures. Sometimes, we have to take a step back and breathe. Allowing the Lord to spend time with us, honestly doing nothing but ministering to our tired bodies.
Allowing our hearts a moment of refreshing as the Holy Spirit just sinks in deep and replenishes the good stuff. Refocusing our thoughts and letting joy grow.
The Joy of the Lord is our Strength, until we forget to water it. Here is where the "Living Water" comes in to respond. The word says " I AM the true vine and My Father is the Farmer" (John 15:1)
" He removes every branch in Me if it does not bear fruit and He prunes every branch that bears fruit so that it would bear more fruit. You are already pruned because of the word which I have spoken to you"
I would like to think that today was about two things. While I rested in HIm, Jesus was pruning. Picking out stress and other weeds, that were trying to find there way into the garden we have created together.
God, often talks to me about His word and what it means, but I believe if we are to journey with HIM, we must follow Him in the little things, as well as the Big. As I obeyed God in the small things... simply walking to the living room and resting ... I found God was showing me the road to obedience doesn't always lie in the Big steps we take.
I am about 70% introvert at heart and could stay alone most of the day... Talking to God, and never really get tired of it... content in the environment, of Me and the Holy Spirit.
Social environments can spark a kind of social anxiety, I don't really enjoy.
I will admit, some days are worse than others.
The social anxiety is especially aggravated when God gives me something to share for a people group . I am Highly sensitive and intuitive by nature, so being around people is always an emotional grab bag. The spectrum of emotions could be endless in a given day, especially when giving out of the gifts God has given to me.
Sharing publicly is a monster of a task for me. The thought of not sharing is disappointing at best because I would not be obedient to my Father... and I just can't bear the thought of disappointing Him, intentionally. So, I march on... assuming, sharing publicly will get easier over time.
Yesterday, was one of those days when God had something for "the group".
My heart was in it 100% but I stammered and revealed the uneasiness and less confident nature that is normal for me in this type of environment. I came home and passionately did a video blog, which I instantly decided wasn't good enough for the world to see. So, you can imagine the stress and unrest that was forming.
So, while I AM writing (because for me it's a form of release, and for writers everything is subject matter) ... I didn't get here on my own. I am not sharing because I have to, but because I want to
and I am happy to ...
God reveals His goodness, when we cooperate with HIM in every step. Being obedient in "Rest" is just as important as being obedient in the Larger steps of Ministry, and it's OK to rest! God expects us to enjoy our lives and have fun in what we do. He actually give us grace to follow HIM into the goodness. Wherever the Lord leads, He will provide for us. This is HIS good promise to each of us.
Developing with in yourself a pattern of His voice, is a good place to begin.
There is grace for that ... by giving yourself the room to think you heard from God, but it turns out you didn't! Give yourself time to get to know the Holy Spirit before you make the big decisions, but get ready to flow. When you give the Holy Spirit an open door, you will get to the point He will tell you to rest in the Lord, and you will obey. (Remember, He is your friend and He loves you!)
by Dawn Brown
Copyright April 2018
When I think of God and I am honest with myself I know I have looked upon him in several different ways, up until a few years ago, he was an image. He was my hero. He was there to take all the wrongs that had happened to me and make them right. I leaned on a promise I did not know externally but I relied upon internally and in secret. One day that God would make good on this internal promise.
I don't know how I managed to form this opinion of God but non the less it was there.
As my life progressed from child to adult, I saw him less and less likely to save me from my choices. The funny thing is I knew he had the power to make all my choices right but he never did, and I lacked the vision for my understanding. He (God) was changed for me. He looked the same, smelled the same and yet he no longer held the same stature for me, with out HIM I was empty, with no reason. I had to keep the pretext that I knew Him better than he knew me but he became a powerless God to me.
Genuine curiosity made me ask again who he was in my life. I began to trifle with the things of God, dare Him, challenge Him. There was no answer from God on these accounts, but wasn't that just it? There was no answer. I would think I would here something but then when I spoke to people about it, I was told I was crazy. "God doesn't do that now. " My calling and destiny became stale and withering. I believed God had no real purpose for me. I began to ask God if he was real why had I not realized the purpose and plan for my life? I had become a willful child to my Father.
During this same time he lost me to myself. Pain and anger changed me for a time. Changed my belief that he was the knight in shining armor I once thought him to be. I was wrecked and ship of my faith and trust went down with me. Completely disillusioned by who my God was, I became persistent in my ignorance. How does one become so stubborn? Loosing sight of His great love was an immense mistake and I nearly drowned in my self pity and pain.
Slowly, (painfully slow) I determined to get to know God. I reasoned as a person would that I didn't know his likes and dislikes, I didn't know his favorite color ... I didn't know him as a friend.
He was someone I felt I had never known. Not really. I then knew God as an acquaintance.
Walking through life, I began again. I allowed him to speak to my heart like a friend.
He knew me before the earth was formed is what his word says;
I am certain I spent my existence with God prior to being nit to this body, loving only HIM.
Today, to the chagrin of many people, I have chosen HIM for my future. So upon my stone (tablet) and my heart lay the purposes, plans & establishments (declarations & decrees) of God. No longer do I need a hero to change the result of choices I have made for my life. What I have learned is that GOD... to me, is my best friend, my husband, my joy, my future, my song, and the words I speak to you now.
God is my greatest joy and my greatest love. He has been with me a lifetime and will be with me forever more. Not a distant God but a God that shows me joy and peace when I least deserve the process but because he loves me more than I love him ... He offers his love freely in return for the limited love in my heart (though I seek every day to give him my heart wholly).
God is my Father, my Papa, my brother, my hope and all the vision I have for myself and my family.
He didn't change the circumstances but he changed me, and while I do not walk on water... If he asked I would go. I would simply step out. Because I have trusted and found my faith not in a hero, or a disembodied god, but in the one true God. His light changed my heart and empowered the sword of the warrior I didn't know I could be.
So onward I walk, not alone not in pain and misery but in justice among my peers.
He has enabled me in a time when enabled power is brief, if at all. I listen for his call and wield the sword of his knowing beyond what I should be capable. It is no longer a daily decision but a knowing his will is ALWAYS for my good.
Run out ahead I rarely do but often it is because my God has bid me run and do not walk to the next place ...
Dream good people of God and know your heart is HIS to love and never forsake.
Who is God, to me? He is a trusted friend. He is a redeemer, He is a visionary. He is light in the midst of the darkness!
God is forgiveness and Hope that springs eternal.
If you do not know this kind of love, I encourage you to ask him for it.
to know that he is there to bring you a coat of many colors and put a ring on your hand!
by Dawn Brown
Have you ever asked yourself, "If I wasn't afraid what could I accomplish ?"
I use to imagine all the impossible things I could do if I could only break loose of the chains that bound me. In my mind, I could picture myself flying to the highest reaches and coming back down only to soar again and again. There was NO fear, there in the midst of my heart and above the clouds was peace and freedom. It has been my life long dream even in the silent days to soar, to open my wings and fly among the clouds... to feel the breathe of God light up that little gem of greatness until it burned brighter than even I thought it could. God can do that you know... take the gift you were made for and allow it to make a way for you to push past the "Nay Sayers" and fly so high that only you and GOD know how high you can actually reach.
There is a place inside you that burns to do what it was that God created you to be. Sometimes, it's gone cold and we feel lost but the closer we reach out to God the more we find his heart for us.
God knew you from the beginning and he blessed you with his heart to do the thing he wrote on your soul to do, for me it was writing. I love it so much that even the smell of paper gives me a sense of coming home. Paper is my canvas and it shapes how I walk and talk and even breathe at times. It changes the canvas and scope of the life I lead. When I seek God, I find he inspires the one thing I love that isn't family or friends.
I tell my husband all the time THANK YOU for what he does. I know it isn't easy. He will say "It's what I do". Writing is "what I do" ... It is my driving force/ inspiration and can only be accomplished through God at the helm. My life never made sense until he put it all in order once again. Believing he would change the face of the thing I loved, he changed my canvas and my stars. He disciplined and discipled my heart and my motivation.
Recently, my journey not being as clear as it once was, was presented before God in a way that only he knows was not appropriate for what we had done together. I didn't yell at him but I through up in his face that this was not where I should be, it was the voice of a child instead of a patient adult. I was sad at the way I had spoken to my friends, Father, Son & Holy Spirit. By the time, I apologized later that day ... in a few minutes I heard " I am not afraid of you." Now, to understand what he was tell me you have to know why he told me " I am not afraid of you" ... Often, my husband is sassy... Often, I am sassy back when the banter comes to a head I often say to him "I'm not afraid of you" in my most confident tone. It's the same as sticking my tongue out ... just verbally. We laugh and move on to the next thing at hand that we will likely sass about as well. I never take this kind of banter with my husband seriously. My husband being the one of kind that he is takes much of our sarcasm and adds to the fire.
He is beautifully and wonderfully made.
Fast forward, to the moments in the car the Holy Spirit dropped in my soul " I am not afraid of you"
It was so powerful to hear him take the words I had said to my husband a hundred times and use them on me. He wasn't afraid that I got upset with him, suddenly I was free of condemnation because of his heart for me.
The next day as I was sitting in the parking lot of a local mall, about to go do some "Mom stuff", the Holy spirit dropped something else in my heart. "He wasn't afraid of the process it took to get me where I needed to be." He simply knew every day was a journey and we would do it together as we had always done. Friends do that for one another. They listen to each others hearts when the words fail. They know that their hearts are troubled and weary and the words don't mean much when the heart is burdened and over flowing with process. Over the last two 1/2 years I have learned to listen to the heart of the Father for me, but when it comes to training my heart to listen to him about others... I have failed miserably.
I knew God was ready for me to put in practice the love he had shown me onto others, but I wasn't ready to put away the fear and judgement that was in my heart. Clearly, I had some work to do. Some practical application I don't necessarily use. God has been molding me for a long time. Each time he was doing the work... he is still doing the work. The least I can do is say YES. stop performing in anyway and let the Lord do his work.
All he needs is our whole heart, our full cooperation and to step aside from the things that would mean keeping our pride in tact. Sounds big doesn't it? After two straight years of listening to his heart for me, and saying yes when he asked ... if the choice is being without him or going with him to parts unknown, If it means I get to spend my life with Him!... I choose HIM. He was always my destiny, the truest path I could have walked. He is the way, the truth and the life of my heart, and no destiny or gift great or small compares to the love of God in my heart. There is simply no one before HIM.
He is the light that shines the way to over, through and on this journey I call my life, and I don't want it if it doesn't come from HIM.
What a dream come true. With in the confines of this kind of processing, I find that my faith is strengthened and my heart is more driven to understand His ways in my life, than ever. It's ok, to be lost in your own flesh as long as you know that God designed us to process with him and not away from him. To live in the space where God is, creates the safest place to make a mistake, tumble, slip and just flat out face plant. God knows your weaknesses, your doubts and your dreams and ALL of them are ok. He doesn't expect perfection, he's not looking for that... He is however, I believe... looking for the love that is produced when you give people that safe space to move about the cabin freely and have the opportunity to mess up and come back. Tell Him you messed up and keep going.
He's not afraid of you, strange as it may sound. So, feel free to process without fear and learn to soar through the sky at your own pace.
As one of my favorite speakers and authors writes " God loves your process even more than you do"
Your gonna be "ok" child of God. Beloved, new creature of the most high Father, God. You will will your battle and you WILL walk knowing that you did NOT do this on your own.
Go after your dream knowing that every step was a step with the most HIGH God and fall in love with the journey that takes you there.
I stood looking in the mirror today, reflecting upon the things I have overcome in during my life.
I reached in and began to disassemble the things that had been built over the last season of my life.
I think because I was so interested in how they worked. How GOD worked through them.
Somewhere in the midst, I saw the angle... It was refined like polished steal. The LIE.
...and I almost fell for it.
Several times during the last couple of years God would show me glimpses into the beautiful life he has planned for me. Not once did I question his sovereign plan, because lets face it ... he has better plans! Now that being said, I began to wonder from the outset of the book "when" all these things would be manifested.
I yearned to hear the voice of the Lord tell me, it was time. Time to be free of all my shackles and move forward. Time for a word, time for someone to notice my book and the dream would begin. The things God spoke in my heart would auto manifest and I would be a household name before I knew it.
Here is the trouble with most dreamers, creatives are much the same around the world... they dream.
It is those very dreams that God rises in their being and has them call out to the world.
These dreams can become in balanced with all that success promises, it never promises a level head or that even if success is your designated environment it would be all that you imagined.
I longed to see the promises God talked to me about come to their most amazing conclusion or at least the one in my head. I had not built a shrine to the destiny God showed me but I did badger him with it day in and day out. There was definite impatiences with in my waiting upon the Lord to set me free of this state of being that was not anticipated success.
so God asked you to write a book. Asked you to create time and space and gave you the hope and security you need to get the job done and now with all his brilliance you less than rewarded for it.
So you say to yourself, it's ok... God will come through! He said it, I believe it ... and that's it, it's done.
until a few days later when of course, it's not done and your telling God "hey, I thought you were going to do this thing... you know the future you showed me?"
God is so good he begin to recite the love in his heart to you. and conveys with all his holy insight that YOU are his child. ( I have melted by this point and have been brought to my rightful place of humble)
Fast forward to 9 months later. Success still has not banged on my door even a little bit.
I begin to feel that I have missed it, or quit frankly GOD must have.... I don't see anything God showed me would be here when I finished my life long pursuit to write a book.
Till this morning, offended and puffed up with pride... I sit down to pray. As, I was praying, something hit me. I was beginning, not all the way there ... but just beginning to see bitterness eek into my usually humble heart. WHAT? Where did that come from? You know, the enemy ALMOST got away with it.
That sneaky devil was being subversive! I knew I had to act fast. I asked God to loose any bitterness I had cultivated toward him. I asked him to forgive this crazy heart for even entertaining the lie of the enemy.
Here is what I realized. 1. if the enemy can not get away with accusing you to yourself, he will accuse GOD! *I was in my heart accusing the one true God of not completing the work he began.
2. When you set out with God there is no parachute. When we walk in faith we seek to manifest faith to an unbelieving world. We seek to soar with out a net. There is simply no half way mark with God.
It is all the way ... or nothing.
Today, I realized the trouble with relying on safety is that there is not faith involved with parachutes.
God will manifest his dreams for you when your soul prospers ... and not before. Today God showed me that I not only was subject to the enemies lie but my soul hadn't prospered. If I am honest, I knew that... I knew I had some work to do ... but work is hard and it goes with out saying that sometimes your just tired of the world always judging the things of God inside you.
Honestly, I had to admit... I hadn't gotten to the point to where I used my faith more than my sight. God has been trying to teach not to rely on my sight so much as the faith in my heart to rely on God to get me to his promises. To sit back and let go... I will get there one day but none of this is on my time line.
God is a good God and one day ... I will be at his right hand and I will get to say thank you for all the ways you chose to love me. Even when I wasn't grown up enough to know what was going on.
As for the enemy, he was foiled, once again God got his man. Some things God just does because he can... and disappointing the enemy is just a bonus!
God bless you ... and know that God is always with you!
Leaning not unto your own understanding is at best a foreign concept to many of us who have grown up learning to devise ways that make sense to us in a chaotic world. THIS IS SIMPLY DIFFICULT TO UNLEARN, for the sake of Learning who we are in Christ Jesus.
God in HIS righteousness, didn't give us hard tasks but he did ask us to become fishers of men.
(Which is like lifting Dumb Bells for the first time for some of us.) Something HE is very good at doing. JESUS was so cultivated at being "a fisher of men" that HE was able to love the flaws and intricacies of each and every man, and he was able to fit the pieces together for them.
So that wholeness in HIS presence was normal.
IMAGINE, feeling like you are just who you should be right now and no matter what mistake or disjointed attempt you could make for the love of GOD, it was perfect and somehow capable of accomplishing all that GOD needed for that moment.
I don't think any of us feel those inadequacies more acutely than myself. YET, GOD/JESUS knew how to take a man and make him perfect, just by allowing him to be "the created". What does that mean exactly... It is a concept that allows the human experience a place with God. Unhinging, is it not.
That God saw his perfect work as imperfectly workable and tangible in all things good. HIS light being forever shined on the work of his glory.
The Created, is a concept I have often thought of as lonely, indescribably in habitable by the all mighty God. Yet, HIS concept of us, is complete when we are in our imperfected state. (His ways are not our ways) Diligence and Hope create an atmosphere of knowing the God around you. Diligent to seek him and profoundly moved with hope when you find him.
Years ago as a child, I trained myself in my own understanding, but it has not brought me peace.
Only the love of God has drowned out the devil and his consorts. When you work with the enemy you learn to be like the enemy. You never challenge or consult the enemy for his opinions. You defile yourself and GOD for the likelihood of understanding. Which NEVER comes.
The peace of GOD passes all understanding. It means regardless of what is happening or how you feel, we get to rejoice in our circumstances . We get to love one another beyond what we know or understand. We believe and trust that GOD's hand is on it all. Then there is the obvious question that the world will ask you... How do you know GOD will work all things to the good of those who serve him?
Allow me to teach you something, I have learned along the way.
I had an example growing in God of a man that was imperfect in his journey with God. He taught a valuable lesson and in the sense that he taught it to me by living his life this way. What I learned from him was to WAIT. Waiting on the Lord is not easy and at first, it's like giving up your favorite caffeinated drink, but ultimately it's better for you in the long run. I didn't understand his nature but I watched him over the years. He became more and more patient in his pursuit of understanding the world around him. Good or Bad he seem to have this sense of peace.
He learned to wait on God, not be tormented by the things of this world. It is difficult notion to wait and not grow weary. The enemy will bring you gifts of plenty ( a simple strategy he brings to many) to place at your feet as though you were a god. As soon as, you pick of the fruit he will turn it on you.
There is nothing of this world of true consequence except that of Love. If you can grasp that, you will understand why the Lord says to wait upon HIM. The enemy will tell us we need all those things to be the completed person we NEED to be but GOD doesn't tell us that... he tells us to wait upon the LORD. He will bring you JOY of great measure and hope. HIS way, HIS truth and HIS light are the ones that bring us the confidence ( I heard TODD WHITE call this GODfidence) to be who we are capable of becoming in this world. To sacrifice self taught theology to HIS word, creates the person God intented us to be.
He tells us to be secure in the knowledge that GOD knows and does all things for our good and our best benefit. We were not created to be creatures of comfort, but creatures of JOY, ADVENTURE, HOPE and LIGHT.
YOU are a CHILD of the MOST HIGH GOD and HIS ways will suit you best in the coming age.
GOD has a plan for you my dear, and it's not about the wealth of this world but about the wealth of your soul. God knows that character must go first before wealth or the enemy will reduce you to his stature.
Be blessed, and trust in the LORD your GOD and lean not unto your own understanding. The Lord has a plan, it may not be evident to you now... but there is clarity in waiting upon the Lord your GOD to find your way in this world. He is a lamp unto your path... join him on the journey of this world.
I promise HE will never disappoint. :)
When we discover that our desperate times are breeding ground for God's ultimate plan for our lives we will sit still and wait on him to finish his good work and enjoy the ride we are on.
Desperate times do not call for desperate measures, they call for prayer. It is a call to be still inside our hearts and know that he is GOD. When the enemy knows he can not push or pull you in any direction, he then knows he has truly lost.
Do not disquieten yourself but know in your heart that GOD is Lord of all he surveys and he will not be mocked. Your journey is deliberate to him, your dreams his wondrous pleasure. There is nothing he won't do for you, but you must wait upon the Lord and know that his word is sovereign in the scheme of things. This requires maturity.
The LIGHT OF THE LORD is beyond measure, his hand may touch an infinite amount of things. Your life can be touched and reached by all or none of it.
You may go on saying "why me?" while sitting in your kitchen floor crying out to GOD to save you or YOU can trust him to be your friend and to fight with you as you walk through the things that don't make sense in this world. Jesus is your armor bearer. He will never leave you, nor forsake you. He will stand with you in all that you do. The reality being that relationship with the MOST HIGH GOD, will grant you access HIM at the same level you have built your relationship to God -
Newton's 3rd law tells us something about God's relationship with us...
Formally stated, Newton's third law is: For every action, there is an equal and opposite reaction. The statement means that in every interaction, there is a pair of forces acting on the two interacting objects. The size of the forces on the first object equals the size of the force on the second object.
"What you sew, you shall also reap" - Many people have twisted this into some sort of "knowledge" that if you do something bad you will get something bad. While that could be true, in the absence of GRACE. We don't look at the issue with the light of God on the matter. Giving your heart and soul to GOD results in the giving of GOD to you. Of all that was created, "the created" were created to house the living GOD inside them. (Jesus coming to live inside our hearts when we accept HIM into our hearts and our bodies being a temple to house the light of GOD for eternity) We are physical beings but GOD didn't just create the physical, did He? In nature as well as love we reap what we sew. If we sew the heavenly Father, we shall by all account reap what we sew. It is an infinite ripple effect of the heart, that in it's entirety we can not fathom or calculate, the measure of which God may be able to flow into his children, "the created" .
Open doors are created by joyous people who have lost their identity in favor of the relationship they have created with the all mighty GOD.
Truly, I hope some day you might gain the understanding of it. Truly know that it is not what we can gain but what GOD gains through us that makes the difference. HIs glory amplified by our trust in HIM as we move to seek him out.
Be the open door to the discovery of GOD not only for yourself but for others around you.
I write all of this while waiting on GOD to shed a light on my path to show me the way he would have me to go. The enemy has processed me in such a way that I must prove what GOD has told me by my life or give up completely. Since there is no giving up, I must find GOD's abundant grace and continue to search him out with all my heart.
Life is not easier for some and harder for others. It is a constant war, and as long as we stay trapped and go no further with GOD than the knowledge that he may exist... our lives
will be joined by nothing more than we have put into it.
I choose to go with GOD, I choose to fight with all my will and heart and soul. I choose to let it be known that my life is no longer my own but called by GOD into whatever journey this turns out to be and no matter where it might take me.
I gave my life to HIM when I was eight and he patiently walked with me until all I could do was search out the truth of who HE was to me. Times change and things change and we don't know the answers but GOD does and we wait upon him for the cry of our heart's demands it.
Be diligent to serve him in all your ways and the love of GOD WILL prevail.
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"I stood on a hill and saw nothing but GOD, while others saw nothing at all." -
It is an amazing feeling to know that you love is what God loves too.
Have you ever thought about the fact that God cares about everything you care about and more.
Let's go even further... What if you loved what GOD loved?
It is sort of a catch 22 ... right? If you love it, then God must love it but did he love it first and then plant that love in you or did you love it and he loved it because you loved it.
Well, the word says WE love him, because he FIRST loved us. I think for me that pretty much answers my question. Who loves first ... there is always some one who loves first. RIGHT?
I mean, if we create a human being it's not because that baby loved us first... generally speaking, it's because it was loved first.
So, we have established that God loves first, but what does he love first?
Well, the word says he loves us first! Lets think about that a moment ... we were loved first!
First before what ... all of heaven? We were loved before time itself? Why would he love us first?
Anyone who has ever created anything of significance could answer that question.
As an example, I used to write poetry all the time growing up. It was my passion, my baby, my heart.
I loved the written word. So everything that came from my heart, generally went down on paper.
(Some things never change) So, If I am to say that which I have created is in a sense my child then I begin to fathom the priority that we begin to take with God.
We are his creation. We came from the depths and heart of GOD. He is a good God so he gives us grace to learn what we need to know to understand him but he loves us in a way that is all consuming.
We are first, above all creation... even a little above the Angels. Hard to believe, I know but God loves us.
My conclusion today will be breif. I have a creator that loves us and wants us to love each other... i.e. " what he loves" simple as that.
There is no road map to this love... but it does take time to understand the depths of which God loves us, and so we should love each other.
God has been talking to me about Joy, but in the midst of it all was this little nugget of understanding.
Loving what he loves can not be over looked in our path to understand a loving God this way.
In order to cultivate God and our Joy we MUST find a way to love our fellow man.
I do not mean accept the discord that seems to want to run our lives. We love our children, but we do not accept when they are ugly to each other. We teach them to be gentle and kind and bring to the atmosphere, joy. However, in the midst of all of this we taught to love.
God teaches us to love. He is aware of the sin but he sees the end from the beginning. So when he looks at each one of us he sees that we are his righteousness, not failures. God's goodness is always seeking the goodness in us. God's heart is to always find the love, because HE IS LOVE.
Our hearts and bodies were made in the image of a loving GOD. We crave it and expect it.
And now abides faith, hope, love, these three; but the greatest of these is love.
The manifest destiny for all who love God is to then give that love away to their fellow man.
Because he first loved us we then love him.
... and if I may ... we then love each other.
This is the greatest gift God could give any of us... to love him with all our heart, soul and mind.
Then love each other. Nothing can defeat that.... loving each other is paramount.
All God's dreams begin and end with his children loving HIM first then each other!
Take this to your family, your job and then to anyone else out there that will listen.
GOD wants us all with him... and loving your neighbor is the best and most amazing way to get them there.
WE are the family of GOD and some people will not understand you but they will understand the love of God for them.
Beloved, love what GOD loves because he loved you first!
I had a couple of remarkable dreams last night. I was profoundly touched by their nature and can remember most of what happened in them. Usually, I don't remember much after the first five minutes.
The first dream went something like this ;
I was a tailor. I created two dresses. One I liked very much and one I was only OK with tho' the pattern on the material was beautiful. I decided both needed trimming. I placed the trimming of lace on the first dress and a pleated ruffle I began on the second. When I tried the first dress on, it fit like a glove. It was a yellow sheath dress, with beautiful gray ornate flowers on it. Through this part of the dream I didn't want to wear it because Yellow is not my color in the natural. I much preferred the other dress which was a pink and black color block dress and the pleated ruffle was white. I sincerely wanted the pink and black dress even tho' the Yellow dress fit so perfectly. For a moment I was allowed to see the dress on someone else who covered the dress in a chiffon overlay. It looked messy and unkept to me. So, I decided to keep the dress on, at the end of the dream I was comfortable in the dress and knew that it was the dress for me. I never completed the trim on the other dress, nor did I see the other dress again.
After the dream I awoke and looked up the meaning of the colors. I couldn't find anything at the time and soon fell back to sleep.
The second dream went like this;
I was in some sort of hover craft, which I have only seen till now used in the water. It seemed to me I was in a bubble with the biggest portion of the front made of glass. I was NOT the pilot but the passenger in the craft. I do not know who the driver was except he brought me to a place and was there to show me. I was not told audibly to look a head but I did. This is what I saw...
A desert. The sand was not dusty like you would assume, it was alive and a beautiful beige. The wind did not whip it around. It was pleasantly still. Below us was a bridge. A large wide bridge that made its way across to a LARGE hill that wasn't quite a mountain but did not have a point to it. Behind the hill though there we many foothills. The landscape was vibrant and clean and it seemed that beige was a beautiful clean color to me. As we followed the bridge with our eyes but hovering in the same place what I saw was a brilliant city. When I say it glowed, I mean it was VIBRANT and glowed with light all around it. I wanted to say that it was the "City of Heaven" . It was set inside the Large Alabaster Hill.
We sat for what seemed a while just staring intently at the Hill with it's City centered inside it. The entrance to the City was a large archway where you could see the city inside clearly. The bridge it's self led to the top of the hill but not the opening of the city. It seemed there was no way in but to fly.
The city was very large in scope and looked to me, like a kingdom heavenly ranked in scope & stature.
The glow from the city seemed to come from the stone it was made from, not from any light I could recognize or what could be manufactured. It was brilliant to see.
We did not get closer than that, I was only allowed to see it not travel through it.
I took note, that I was flying / hovering over something. I very seldom get to fly in my dreams.
I enjoyed the dream very much.
When I woke from the experience of both dreams I wanted to know more... not many people are having dreams about cities it seems nor do they write about Alabaster ones.
I did however find references to colors and clothing that suited my understanding but will need further discussion in prayer. So far, I understand that the Yellow dress in my previous dream is what "suits me" best. The color Yellow is defined as spirit of wisdom and the Glory of God.
(This color could represent a gift from or of God (as in a prudent wife is a gift from the Lord). Yellow could also symbolize in a dream a marriage covenant, family or to be honored or having honor in one’s natural or spiritual life. It could also represent your understanding for the word of God and your strong desire to seek wisdom. (Ps. 68: 13; Proverbs 19:14) www.joshuamediaministries.org/dreams/colors
Gray Flowers on my dress-
When dreaming of the color gray the bible describes this as dignity and honor.
(Positive: This color could mean in a dream if the hair is gray, being wise or having wisdom in a certain area or situation in one’s natural or spiritual life.
(Proverbs 16:31) using the same link in the previous definition.
When I woke up this morning I felt as though God had shown me something. Something I was meant for, something that was coming. I don't like the color yellow but God was showing me through that color (things I don't usually like ) that he would bless me with things I specifically want and desire in my life. The ultimate Goal ... Heaven.
I am blessed to have a God that loves me greatly and would take the time to show me his plan and his hope for me. It is difficult to walk through life not knowing what God has planned for us but God is a good God and he does make good plans for us. I truly hope that you seek him out and find the plan he has for you. Keeping your eyes & heart open to things that you may not like at first ... even they can yield blessings from the Father.
“For his anger endureth but a moment; in his favour is life: weeping may endure for a night, but joy cometh in the morning.” Psalms 30:5
Copyright April 2017
Some days I ask God what he is saying. Most days I get an unexpected answer.
Today, I spent some time with my son who has a unique calling on his life. The same spark I have seen in my own life since I was young, I saw in him. I always thought of it as something better than myself. "A spark of Greatness" if you will. Now this spark wasn't always there, that I noticed... but about 15 years of age I began to feel it ignite. It showed up when I wrote... when I saw something that fit my calling. (although, I had no idea at the time what a "calling" was...)
As soon as I felt the inspiration, something would come along that hindered it. Before you know it, I was internally calling myself stupid, awkward, a joke and unless I kept quiet people would laugh at me.
(and that was all without social media!) I never gave myself credit for anything that someone else didn't say first. I couldn't allow my joy in anything that confirmed who I was... and/or who I wasn't.
So today when I sat across from my beautiful son, who I feel needs validation and dreams more than anything else in his life, I thought about that inner dialogue that was so rampant through my soul when I was his age. If he knew all that God had called him to, he would not doubt in his heart for a moment the love of God for him nor the precious love that gave him life.
When I left the restaurant, I thought of the spark God placed in my heart, for many years I thought it was the ability to be "blessed beyond all I could ask or think". That spark of Greatness was going to compel me into world renown stardom, infamy ...so, I thought... but the spark of Greatness within us doesn't call us to natural things ... it calls us to God.
It lights a flame in us that never stops burning. Now eventually, I got used to the burning. I ignored for a time, but it never stopped. I never thought other people would want to see the light burning within me. So, I went about being what others thought I should be .... NOT what God wanted me to be.
What I found was that the spark / flame or burning in my soul was God. My Spirit man hungry for the things of God I couldn't feed him. I didn't know how to feed him, but when I found food that was about God... my soul couldn't get enough. I have been overwhelmed with the need to understand God since he revealed the true calling of my life. The spark that drew me to Him and hungered for Him is the same spark that revealed in me what the Greatness in my life really was.
When I asked God what he wanted to tell me today... This is what I got;
Amazing how the things of God turns our natural thinking on it's ear and transforms us. Loving God will not only help you find who you are it will change your understanding of this world in such a way that you don't know how you looked at the things and people of this world any other way. I pray he reveals to you what he revealed to me. May his anointing ever be on you to reveal God to you in ways that your own comprehension can't fathom!
What God revealed to me today;
Someday God is going to ask you to take that spark and add it to HIS. The igniter (God's love) is going to set off a fire so great that no matter what you do you will feel the nature (the Spirit of God ) surrounding you. Compelling you to be who you were called to be.
I look forward to seeing you do the impossible with God.
Matthew 19:26 states, "But Jesus beheld [them], and said unto them, With men this is impossible, but with God all things are possible. NKJV
I see you as a Roaring Lion coming over the hill toward me.
Your steps are sure and you know the destiny you have created before me.
Your light is immeasurable, and my hands are nervous for what I know is coming.
But there I stand in your presence unable to move, unable to speak.
YOU have come for ME.
I want to scream out and declare the destiny on my life I know is there, but it is not time.
I want to tell the world that you have positioned me for such a time as this, but my heart fails me and I lack the courage to confront a world so sure of itself.
Then like lightening striking, I am on my knees.
I have lost any will to do anything but to look at your beautiful and amazing face.
The love of God radiating from the song of love I hear coming from your heart to mine.
How can I think of exalting anything of my own, when your love is waiting for me.
I forget that I was born for more, and I relinquish all my dreams to you.
You are my most beloved and tender Father, and you have come for me.
Who am I, to change anything. To move with any freedom without your love to guide and direct me.
Suddenly, I am not who I am anymore but more of you. You are my strength. You are my vision. You are my everything… Who am I, Lord without you?
I think I have lost my way but you are just sanctifying the radical and bringing me to understanding of you. The thought that there is always more of you courses through me. Total and complete devotion leads me to say “What would you have of me, Lord?”
Your reply is simple; “It is your love I need daughter. The heart I gave you is the one I want.”
I understand at that point that there is nothing but the truth in him and he is seeking the same truth in me. It is NOT defined by the world but simple and pure and what he restores to me is simply himself in me. As I am fully restored to him, I know this day that started out with a question was given the answer. He restores all things to their most complete form in himself.
Dying and Jaded from the encounters of the enemy with no understanding of the weapons I had to fight back with … he reached out and touched my garment to show me who he really is.
I am astonished at his love and cannot keep my heart from soaring to new heights.
God does love me. He trains us and lifts us up in our most glorious state. It is how he is rewarded for his sacrifice. We are loved but we must find him, no one can do it for us. We are chosen but we must choose him, in big and small ways every day. Learning to walk in the light of the Lord is not a journey.
It is a lifestyle of repentance for the life choices we have made while the enemy was at our door.
We are not the tares but the wheat. We must resist the storms of life and through them grow to new heights. Always reaching for the Son to bring us light and give us the food. He is calling us to grow strong in him. To be the wheat and not the tares, to fight for the hope that we see. … and someday be food to others.
… his hand left my shoulder but somehow, I could still feel the love he left behind. His light seemed to be radiating everywhere. “Don’t leave.” I begged out loud. His heart still connected to mine, his journey to me still so clear. He communicated to me I was not alone and that he would never leave me.
My life is one of searching, and step by step I will see his face again one day. I have no recollection of how I stepped into that place with him that day but I do know it will not be the only time I will see him.
His light shines on me now, and I can’t wait to see what he shows me next. Until then I will speak to those who come my way about his goodness and his love. This journey is not the end just the beginning. I have much to accomplish before he returns, before he calls my name.