Today, I got up and went into the office where I usually go to meet God. I waited there for him to come and give me the instruction for the day, and as usual He began to talk to me.
Now, I didn't sleep very well last night. So, I was tired this morning. I have learned to ignore those tired moments and just seek God. Which is what I was doing when suddenly out of the blue the Holy Spirit said this;
"Get up and go in the living room and take a breathe before the Lord calls on you again,
And know your willingness has been recorded in the lambs book of life. "
So, I did.
I wasn't searching for rest, but the Holy Spirit knew I was tired.
Now, the Holy Spirit doesn't always speak to me so abruptly. I was a bit shocked that He would say "STOP". I thought about the many things I had left undone, as I adjourned to my living room.
I turned on a show I like to watch and began to listen. They were playing worship music. I thought to myself, "perfect"... I closed my eyes and just followed along in my mind.
When the song was over they ministered a verse or two and continued to worship again. " I could do this all day" I thought, and continued to soak in the atmosphere.
From time to time, in the next thirty minutes I did a quick check in my spirit man to see if I should go back to work. "NOPE"... So, there I sat for an hour. Till the "work" of being with God began to melt away. As I rested, I sensed the position of the Holy Spirit over this instruction.
It was time to take a REST. I had been so interested in NOT missing God and honestly wanted to dig into HIS goodness so much, that I was actually overwhelming myself with my own responsibilities. I was beginning to walk in stress and not HIS power, love and a sound mind.
Often, I wonder how things work in a heavenly environment, where no one is anxious or filled with anxiety over getting the job done. Well, I am going to say this out loud... "THEY REST UPON THE LORD". SEE! Nothing unscriptural about it. They have a million and one things to do but they rest in the Lord as part of what God wants them to do.
The effects of the rest I am encountering as we speak, is a moment of clarity between myself and the Holy Spirit, to speak to you regarding rest.
As many of you know, God is not predictable in the sense that he often will change things up. I experience that nearly every week at church, as the worship team leads and the Pastor reveals what the Holy Spirit has given him to relay and teach us about. Revelation of the word doesn't always come by pouring out over the scriptures. Sometimes, we have to take a step back and breathe. Allowing the Lord to spend time with us, honestly doing nothing but ministering to our tired bodies.
Allowing our hearts a moment of refreshing as the Holy Spirit just sinks in deep and replenishes the good stuff. Refocusing our thoughts and letting joy grow.
The Joy of the Lord is our Strength, until we forget to water it. Here is where the "Living Water" comes in to respond. The word says " I AM the true vine and My Father is the Farmer" (John 15:1)
" He removes every branch in Me if it does not bear fruit and He prunes every branch that bears fruit so that it would bear more fruit. You are already pruned because of the word which I have spoken to you"
I would like to think that today was about two things. While I rested in HIm, Jesus was pruning. Picking out stress and other weeds, that were trying to find there way into the garden we have created together.
God, often talks to me about His word and what it means, but I believe if we are to journey with HIM, we must follow Him in the little things, as well as the Big. As I obeyed God in the small things... simply walking to the living room and resting ... I found God was showing me the road to obedience doesn't always lie in the Big steps we take.
I am about 70% introvert at heart and could stay alone most of the day... Talking to God, and never really get tired of it... content in the environment, of Me and the Holy Spirit.
Social environments can spark a kind of social anxiety, I don't really enjoy.
I will admit, some days are worse than others.
The social anxiety is especially aggravated when God gives me something to share for a people group . I am Highly sensitive and intuitive by nature, so being around people is always an emotional grab bag. The spectrum of emotions could be endless in a given day, especially when giving out of the gifts God has given to me.
Sharing publicly is a monster of a task for me. The thought of not sharing is disappointing at best because I would not be obedient to my Father... and I just can't bear the thought of disappointing Him, intentionally. So, I march on... assuming, sharing publicly will get easier over time.
Yesterday, was one of those days when God had something for "the group".
My heart was in it 100% but I stammered and revealed the uneasiness and less confident nature that is normal for me in this type of environment. I came home and passionately did a video blog, which I instantly decided wasn't good enough for the world to see. So, you can imagine the stress and unrest that was forming.
So, while I AM writing (because for me it's a form of release, and for writers everything is subject matter) ... I didn't get here on my own. I am not sharing because I have to, but because I want to
and I am happy to ...
God reveals His goodness, when we cooperate with HIM in every step. Being obedient in "Rest" is just as important as being obedient in the Larger steps of Ministry, and it's OK to rest! God expects us to enjoy our lives and have fun in what we do. He actually give us grace to follow HIM into the goodness. Wherever the Lord leads, He will provide for us. This is HIS good promise to each of us.
Developing with in yourself a pattern of His voice, is a good place to begin.
There is grace for that ... by giving yourself the room to think you heard from God, but it turns out you didn't! Give yourself time to get to know the Holy Spirit before you make the big decisions, but get ready to flow. When you give the Holy Spirit an open door, you will get to the point He will tell you to rest in the Lord, and you will obey. (Remember, He is your friend and He loves you!)
by Dawn Brown
Copyright April 2018